Mommy diary: pg 46

I haven't blogged since October of last year and although I have so much to say, this post won't be an update post. I have something weighing heavy and I just need to get it out. 

I'm not perfect.

It seems like such a cruel joke to have so much joy in my life and then again I struggle to enjoy it. I'm covered in this blanket of uncertainty. My lack of control scares me, but the fact that I am aware makes me a winner already.

 I am stronger for that. 

One thing for sure....

I am not alone. 

I'll never be alone.

I can't be alone.