My first ultrasound was in an ER. I didn't get to see. Everything was so routine, so fast, zero bedside manners. This was my first pregnancy, my first baby and although my husband was there, they didn't allow him to come to ultrasound room and it was his first experience also, so we didn't do much more than what we were told. A few days later I was back in a different hospital ER and this time my husband went to exam rm with me, he was in a position to see and he got to hear the heart beat. I was overwhelmed this time and in pain that I didn't pay attn, this was the evening they told me I was miscarrying. I had to wait the wknd and a holiday on Monday, so didn't see my OB til a few days, she did scans and with my mom and my husband in the room, they all saw the screen, but I didn't. Nobody said anything, but I knew from the way my husband squeezed my arm. So when the dr said they couldn't find my baby and that she was on her way out, I wasn't surprised. My nightmare had officially began. Once I dressed and composed myself I asked for my scans, they said there was nothing there and I said yes, my babies first home is there, the sac. I want to see it. That is the only image I have.
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