Earlier this evening I trimmed and filed my natural nails down because the length was getting long. I don't think I have ever done that in my life. Nail biting has been such an ugly habit of mine. It's crazy to think that in the midst of the toughest battles with anxiety, depression and full on chaos that has been my life the last few months - I have control of this one thing. This may seem trivial to many of you, but it's a huge triumph for me, because in January, I suffered one of the biggest betrayals of my life and it's taken me so long to forgive myself. I'm a work in a progress and just like stepping off a scale for a person struggling with weight loss, can be a victory, trimming down my natural nails is a victory in itself for me. Self control, self motivation, 1 win for me and 1 loss for this body of mine (you two faced bitch). I hate myself on most days, but today..... I'm a winner.
