Now
If I have to define this place in time, the best word I can think of is LIVING.
I am living with a missing piece of me.
I am living with a loss.
I am living with this grief.
I am living with my emptiness.
I am living with my sadness.
I am living a life that I would have given for them, my babies, my angels.
And for that, I also live with LOVE.
Because I know death.
It's touched my family one too many times in such a short while. Death is inevitable - this we all know.
It doesn't make it hurt less and it doesn't make it easy to forget.
So because I remember it and live it, I also love harder and love deeper.
Sure, my fear lingers and sometimes I act irrational, but I am a better person for it.
I will never be the same person I was before these precious babies made me their mama. I will never ever ever be the same.
So this is me, now! Irrevocably changed and trying to LIVE! Just LIVE and LOVE and LAUGH sometimes! #captureyourgrief #whathealsyourheart
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